Profane and Underrated
Oh, and I'm madly in lust with trashy pop music
So, like I feel as if 2015 may be the end of an era for me? Idk, I have so many things I want to do, things I want to accomplish, things that are becoming more important than cosplay and anime cons. My interests have moved away from anime and Japanese sub and pop culture, they have for a really long time. As I've grown I'm still a total geek but I've found my core interests are elsewhere on that spectrum. My art is still important, making comics is still important, building a safe environment for my growing family is still important. But there isn't really room for anime cons on that list anymore. And if I still wanted to go to cons and be involved in geek sub-culture I feel like anime conventions just aren't for me anymore. I've found I'm more at home at Western influenced conventions now. High fantasy, sci-fi, and pagan influenced events.
I want to create comics, I want to finish writing and illustrating Children of Amorphous. I want to close on a house with my husband, I want to raise a child in that house. I want to eventually get my Doula certification, I want to help empower young women and help support young families. I want to become stronger in my faith, to be able to do ritual on a regular basis and connect with the gods. I want a lot of things, and cons are just not that important in my big picture anymore.
Will saying goodbye to this part of me be hard? Yeah. But I know I can come back to it at anytime. I just have more important things going on now, and I need all my time, money, and energies on those things. Not on 400$ hotel rooms and 50$ badges and 200$+ cosplays that will only be worn once. I've always been terrible at keeping my focus, and I know to get what I want right now, to be able to FOCUS, I need to stay out of the cons for a while.